You know what?? This is the end.. this is the end of everything. I start want to know more about LEO on June 2009 and I end it on June 2010. Cool.. 1 year. Everything’s changed. All the people.. new people, new life, new attitude, all new.. shit with it.
The day when I come to the meeting, I thought it’s important b’coz it's the inauguration of the new president. I don’t believed what I see. How can a meeting not formal? It’s like playing. How can everything change because of another club? Hell.. I don’t like. I don’t care what they want to say about me. I know they’re 20th something, but guys.. it’s a meeting. It should be serious, not playing. I entered the room and I can count how many people I recognize. They keep asking me when you come? When you go back? How’s ur school? Each people keep asking me the same question. I become a sculpture for a few hours. F**K with it. I want go home, but I still respect the IPP, I stayed.
Before I study in KL, I always make LEO my #1. Everytime they asked me to go, they called me, I always go. I keep positive thinking although my mind keep saying they only find u when they need u. They need your car. Geez, how can i think like that. Be positive! but now I can’t. This time worst.. I try to be patient, and it doesn’t work. You know what I get? Shit.. I don’t feel good whole day. It’s worst than I can’t get what I want.
It should end. It’s stupid if I just hurt myself. I should face it. If it should be like that, then it should be. I won’t scare. I’m going to face everything. I’m tired of being good, tired of acting, tired of everything. I’ll show them the real of me. I’m bad, I’m ego, I’m cruel, and I never care about anyone. I learned everything from them. Help a lot of people. Keep helping, keep helping, and I become the victim. Victim of stupidity.. I don’t care about people. And now I called and I admitted that I’m stupid. Because everytime I care, people won’t know or the worst is pretend like don't know, and I don’t get the same thing like what I’ve done. Maybe.. maybe.. we shouldn’t expect something from someone. Yaa.. it’s right, but I want to ask is there anyone like that? It's fake if they say got. Everyone expect the same thing they do to others, just they don’t say it. So am I.. I won’t asked them, I just can write and write.. and blame it here.. Amazing hah??
Maybe I should change. I shouldn’t care about people. I’ve to act like myself. I shouldn’t lie to myself. I’ve make the biggest mistake in my life. Trusting people and always think that they’re the one and hope they do the same thing like what I did. But, it’s never late to change. I won’t do that stupid things anymore. I won’t expect something from them. I won’t.. I promise. Time to change... People always make mistake, so am I. Don’t be surprise when I'm change. Don’t say that I’m bad, because that’s the real me and ya that’s me. I can do everything. I still know which right and wrong. Thank you for everything. This will be a nightmare bcoz I've known the truth..
Start from now, I'll act like myself, I'll act like I just know them, and I'll pretend like I never be good to them. I'll just talk when they ask me. I'm not going to find them! this is life.. it's cruel and people won't help u if there's no benefit!
I.M . . S.O.R.R.Y
B.U.T I'.V.E T.O.O
The day when I come to the meeting, I thought it’s important b’coz it's the inauguration of the new president. I don’t believed what I see. How can a meeting not formal? It’s like playing. How can everything change because of another club? Hell.. I don’t like. I don’t care what they want to say about me. I know they’re 20th something, but guys.. it’s a meeting. It should be serious, not playing. I entered the room and I can count how many people I recognize. They keep asking me when you come? When you go back? How’s ur school? Each people keep asking me the same question. I become a sculpture for a few hours. F**K with it. I want go home, but I still respect the IPP, I stayed.
Before I study in KL, I always make LEO my #1. Everytime they asked me to go, they called me, I always go. I keep positive thinking although my mind keep saying they only find u when they need u. They need your car. Geez, how can i think like that. Be positive! but now I can’t. This time worst.. I try to be patient, and it doesn’t work. You know what I get? Shit.. I don’t feel good whole day. It’s worst than I can’t get what I want.
It should end. It’s stupid if I just hurt myself. I should face it. If it should be like that, then it should be. I won’t scare. I’m going to face everything. I’m tired of being good, tired of acting, tired of everything. I’ll show them the real of me. I’m bad, I’m ego, I’m cruel, and I never care about anyone. I learned everything from them. Help a lot of people. Keep helping, keep helping, and I become the victim. Victim of stupidity.. I don’t care about people. And now I called and I admitted that I’m stupid. Because everytime I care, people won’t know or the worst is pretend like don't know, and I don’t get the same thing like what I’ve done. Maybe.. maybe.. we shouldn’t expect something from someone. Yaa.. it’s right, but I want to ask is there anyone like that? It's fake if they say got. Everyone expect the same thing they do to others, just they don’t say it. So am I.. I won’t asked them, I just can write and write.. and blame it here.. Amazing hah??
Maybe I should change. I shouldn’t care about people. I’ve to act like myself. I shouldn’t lie to myself. I’ve make the biggest mistake in my life. Trusting people and always think that they’re the one and hope they do the same thing like what I did. But, it’s never late to change. I won’t do that stupid things anymore. I won’t expect something from them. I won’t.. I promise. Time to change... People always make mistake, so am I. Don’t be surprise when I'm change. Don’t say that I’m bad, because that’s the real me and ya that’s me. I can do everything. I still know which right and wrong. Thank you for everything. This will be a nightmare bcoz I've known the truth..
Start from now, I'll act like myself, I'll act like I just know them, and I'll pretend like I never be good to them. I'll just talk when they ask me. I'm not going to find them! this is life.. it's cruel and people won't help u if there's no benefit!
I.M . . S.O.R.R.Y
B.U.T I'.V.E T.O.O
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